lost-sole

i have the most anoying ears, i can here all the electronical devises, and when i'm on the trian it drives me NUTS! i have to block my ears everytime i'm on the train..listening to music dosent help eather. i'm going crazy! I have to catch the train everyday for an houre and a half each way. it kills me. dose anyone else have this problem?

Let me tell you something. to all ya fokes who are actually reading this. Which I doubt anyone is anyway. I'm actually pathetic seriously, I cant even let my dumb x go even though i broke up with him. i wish he would forgive me, we where a really good cupel, honestly. I'm not just saying that. but it doesn't matter coz i totally stuffed it up. sigh* the only reason i broke up with him was because he wouldn't talk to me so i thought if i broke up with him he would realise i was seriously and ignoring me was not an option, he said he didn't want to and that he loved me but i just couldn't handle it at the time i was having a very hard time at work and on the verge of a breakdown, CAN YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? i needed someone and he wasn't there for me, the problem is i still love him. Dearly. i cant help that. dam, that's why i think I'm pathetic. Makes sense? And NO! I'm not going on the rebound with some guy. i cant do that, btw this all happened about 4 months ago. and I'm still hung up about it he says he was going to get back together with me but when he saw me drunk at this party all over one of his friends he totally cracked it. but i was depressed! You understand right? i dint mean anything buy it. i made a mistake. i cant even say sorry to his face coz i melt in shame every time i see him. Err… it makes me so mad how love has made me pathetic.

I will be nice to you, you will think you have a chance, you will tell me you love me. I will always reject you. Everyone thinks I'm easy, that they should ask me out because I seem like the kind of person who would say yes. I'm not who you think I am. You don't want to go there, I will end up hurting you.

hello my friends and not friends i dont know what to say in this journal so i'm just going to say hey owe and GAIAONLINE ROCKS MY SOCKS

my hair is so diffrent now as soon as i find the cabel for the camera i'm going to upload a new id photo XD